Posting this a little belatedly; it was written on July 17, as I was sitting on the plane going to Japan.

There are a million thoughts going on in my mind. I've been on this flight several times before, but they seem like a lifetime ago. I guess it was a different life now that I think of it? I am not going to Japan to perform or be "Ryan Anthony the trumpet player," member of Canadian Brass, instructor of soloist - this time I'm just going as Ryan Anthony, the cancer patient. The days of traveling international as an artist seems over, and most likely with my recent relapse, I wouldn't even be going on this trip if I weren't traveling with Dr. Brian Berryman.

To have a doctor so involved in his patients' personal journeys is truly special and amazing. I'm sure he doesn't realize how much hope and strength he provides for all his patients, but certainly being able to have a freindship outside of the hospital is unique and a huge reason I'm able to overcome so many obstacles. I started a journey with this disease with Dr. Berryman and I know he'll be there for me (as all his patients) throughout the fight. To tackle this mountain with him personally by my side will be incredibly inspirational and something I will draw on for many years!

This trek is more than just a chance to promote awareness and fundraise for the Multiple Myeloma Research Foundation (MMRF). It's a chance for me to prove to myself, family, friends and supporters that I can still live and hope for a better life even without my trumpet. For the next few days, I'm no different from every other cancer patient just trying to take one step at a time. The support I try to give to MMRF goes beyond musical events and career, it's about daily life. This trek is a chance for me to acknowlege that the groundbreaking research that they are doing is needed for my life, not career, but life! Regardless of my career and performances, I still want to support and help the cause for all involved for their success. I'm thankful for the "stage" on which I can perform to help promote the foundation, but this trek shows that every patient and caregiver can participate and make a difference for the future regardless of age, career and health.

The recent relapse, change and added meds plus radiation has certainly put a damper on my physical ability to train but that's no excuse. We still have to get up and conquer our demons, push past the aches, frustrations, depression, fatigue and obstacles that interfere with life. But as I look around, I see so much more beauty as well. There is overwhelming support and knowledge that we, cancer patients, are not alone. There is a huge family of patients and caregivers all in similar situations that I draw strength from. The friends, colleagues and family that accept me and what I do regardless of result but solely based on that I try.

I'm so proud to be associated with the members of this team and contribute once again to MMRF as their research and new drugs are necessary in my life. I will continue to blog as well as update with pictures on the CancerBlows website and Facebook page.